the baby

my poor, poor boyfriend Jesse has been getting no sleep at all, no joke. so i slept over last night to help him out. it wasn't awesome but i love helping out. at least he got more sleep, i don't have to sleep much at night to feel refreshed in the morning so i'm good. i think i'm really pickingup on the mommy thing. i just can't imagine what it would be like if we couldn't afford a baby! i would go nuts! but, thankfully, he's rich. plus he has a job. and if he ever had trouble i'd help him out (i model, it's going breat). but, since money's not an object, i think it makes raising her a lot easier. she's actually really quiet. i'm not saying she doesn't cry but when she does, if you give her what she wants, she's quiet in a heartbeat. she's so adorable! when she looks at me with those baby blues, i can't help but melt. she looks just like her dad (with any luck, she'll end up just like him and the fact that her "mother" is not the best person in the world won't matter). i just can't understand how it's possible to love someone i just met so much when they wake you up every two hours :) ! but i'm loving this and my parents respect my position, even tho they think 21 is young to be a mom (i think so too, but that doesn't matter to me anymore). i'm loving this life, it's keeping me occupied since i graduated and i i do now is model. i even called up the people at my next shoot and asked if i could bring the baby since Jesse'll be working and they loved the idea! i think i'm a great mom and i hope it'll stay that way!