how many people out there think the va tech shooting was just damn messed up?

i sure as hell do. some wisted asshole who had no friends and no life decides to prey on innocent kids and rip their lives out from under them for no god damn reason. that's just fucked up.
i don't give a damn if he was depressed, he should have known as a full grown adult that you just don't do that shit. plus, who the hell could not see that there was something fucked up about that asshole?!

it makes me so pissed off that someone could knowingly enter a building with an agenda to slaugter innocent students. my brother goes to tech and so do a few of my friends and it pisses the hell out of me that anyone would want to fuck with my family and friends! my brother and two of my friends were supposed to be in the classes that were shot up! i'm so pissed off at that asshole!!!!!!

argh! i finally have a moment away from the baby! (she's at the zoo w/ my mom) don't get me wrong. i love her but i think all parents will agree with me about this situation! i have never loved sleep so much in my life nor have i lacked so much of it! ahhhh.....peace and quiet......

anyways, jesse and i have been pretty good parents.....at least i think we're doing a good job.....huh, i hope we are.....
my clone is sooo adorable! ahhh......

so, i've been having fun...or, well, something changing diapers, feeding her... by the way, babies eat and poop more than any other human beings! it's exhausting, but hey, it's part of the job.

i'm gonna love the day when she can finally poo in a toilet on her own! that's gonna be better than a thousand birthdays.

wish me luck with my parenthood!.........

ok, havin fun with the baby. what a chore! I AM WIPED OUT! but, i guess that comes with the territory. jesse, my boyfriend, has been real good with his little girl. it's so cute! i just don't understand how i could ove that little girl so much when she's not ie by blood! i love Jesse and the baby sooooooooooo much!

my poor, poor boyfriend Jesse has been getting no sleep at all, no joke. so i slept over last night to help him out. it wasn't awesome but i love helping out. at least he got more sleep, i don't have to sleep much at night to feel refreshed in the morning so i'm good. i think i'm really pickingup on the mommy thing. i just can't imagine what it would be like if we couldn't afford a baby! i would go nuts! but, thankfully, he's rich. plus he has a job. and if he ever had trouble i'd help him out (i model, it's going breat). but, since money's not an object, i think it makes raising her a lot easier. she's actually really quiet. i'm not saying she doesn't cry but when she does, if you give her what she wants, she's quiet in a heartbeat. she's so adorable! when she looks at me with those baby blues, i can't help but melt. she looks just like her dad (with any luck, she'll end up just like him and the fact that her "mother" is not the best person in the world won't matter). i just can't understand how it's possible to love someone i just met so much when they wake you up every two hours :) ! but i'm loving this and my parents respect my position, even tho they think 21 is young to be a mom (i think so too, but that doesn't matter to me anymore). i'm loving this life, it's keeping me occupied since i graduated and i i do now is model. i even called up the people at my next shoot and asked if i could bring the baby since Jesse'll be working and they loved the idea! i think i'm a great mom and i hope it'll stay that way!

Since the time we slept together, my friend Jesse and i started going out. i love it! then, we went out to a restaurant one night and came back to his place. he told me that if we were gonna start dating, he didn't want to keep any secrates from me. fair enough. then, he said that he had to tell me something. not so cool. but wait, it gets better. supposedly, he hadn't told anyone yet! way to make me feel weird! then he says he HAS A KID! WHAT?! WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN? see, the story is, one of his friends took him to a bar, he got drunk! how could JESSE get drunk?! anyways, this "friend" let Jesse take off, DRUNK, with a girl. next morning, wakes up, not his apartment! the girl understood that it was a 1 time thing, as she was drunk herself. they introduced themselves, kinda late for that, and parted ways. a month later, she called him, told him she had something to talk to him about. nine months later, IT'S A GIRL! well, she's a month old now, he hasn't told his mother or his family or anyone, but me, of course. and now, all of a sudden, the baby's mom (by the way, he named the baby after ME! so cute! said it was because he alwys had the most fun with me) wants to dump the kid on Jesse! so now, he has to raise a kid all by himself! at this point, i had never really seen Jesse with a baby b4, so i was worried but the next day the baby's bitch of a mom dropped he baby at his house with no warning and said, "She's ur problem now!" WHAT A BITCH! PROBLEM? A KID'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE A PROBLEM FOR IT'S OWN MOTHER! anyways, i was there so i started getting in a fight with her and told her that she had to step up and at least see the baby once in a while but she just started cussing at me! Jesse just scooped his little girl up, grabbed me from the front door, and went inside his apartment. HE LOVES THAT LITTLE GIRL SO MUCH! we went shopping for supplies and i swear he would not put her down! it was adorable! now his apartment looks like a baby store threw up in it. he told his family, parents were upset that he's a little young to have a kid but they love that little girl to bits. and now, i guess i'm a mom. it's really scary but i think we'll manage. Jesse seems to be a better parent than me! :)

ok, so my best friend since i was 3 called me up last night, wanting to hang out. we went to a restaurant with a couple of friends and then headed back to his place so i could crash there for the night. well, i caved, i mean it's not like he was coming on to me or anything, but we had sex! i love him so much and i don't know what to do now! what should i do guys? leave it at that or take it a step forward? i know he's liked me for some time now and i've had the same feelings but i don't want to mess up a 18-year friendship. what do i do?

LADIES, help me out here! i need a hubby!